You Said No. Why Are You Still Apologizing?

The guilt, the overexplaining, and the imaginary courtroom you've built inside your own head.

You said no.

Two letters. One syllable. A perfectly normal word that people use every single day. And somehow, you've managed to turn it into a full-blown emotional crisis. Now you're sitting on your couch wondering if you sounded rude.

Should you have explained yourself better?

Maybe you should send another message.

Something casual.

“Hey! Just wanted to make sure you know it's nothing personal! I've just got a lot going on right now! Hope you're not upset! ❤️”

Girl.

Put the phone down.

You've already answered the question.

Since When Did Saying No Require a Written Statement?

I swear, some of us treat a simple no like we're appearing before a judge. We present our evidence. We explain our circumstances. We apologize for the inconvenience. We provide supporting documentation. And if the other person doesn't immediately respond with something reassuring?

Oh, we're done for.

Now we're checking our phone every eleven minutes.

Are they mad?

Did I hurt their feelings?

Should I have just said yes?

Meanwhile, the other person might be standing in their kitchen wondering what to make for dinner. But we've already imagined the end of a friendship, an awkward Christmas, and three people discussing how selfish we've become. All because we couldn't make it to something on Saturday. Honestly, our brains deserve an award for creative writing.

Here's the Part Nobody Likes Admitting

Sometimes we say yes because it's easier than dealing with someone's disappointment.

There. I said it.

We'll agree to plans we don't want. Take on things we don't have time for. Volunteer for responsibilities that make us want to scream into a pillow. Then spend the entire time feeling annoyed that we agreed.

And here's the really ridiculous part.

We're annoyed with the other person for something we agreed to.

I've caught myself doing this. Saying yes before I've even thought about whether I want to. Then getting home and thinking, Why did I do that? Because I didn't want an uncomfortable conversation. So instead, I volunteered for an uncomfortable afternoon.

Brilliant decision-making, Vanessa.

Absolutely outstanding.

You Can Be a Good Person and Still Disappoint Someone

I think this is the part that takes some getting used to. Someone can be disappointed with your answer. They can wish you'd said yes. They can even be a little annoyed. And you can still have made a reasonable decision.

I know.

Unsettling information.

Especially if you've spent most of your life trying to make sure everybody's happy with you. But other people's reactions aren't always something you can manage. Sometimes they'll understand. Sometimes they'll need a minute. Sometimes they'll think you're being difficult because they're used to you saying yes.

And sometimes you've genuinely let someone down, and a conversation is worth having.

That's life.

The trick is learning to tell the difference between being unkind and being uncomfortable because somebody didn't get the answer they wanted.

Those are two very different things.

Can We Stop Writing Apologies Nobody Asked For?

Here's a little experiment.

The next time someone asks you to do something, don't answer immediately. I know. Revolutionary.

Try:

“Let me check and get back to you.”

Or:

“I can't this time.”

Or, if you're feeling particularly adventurous:

“No, that doesn't work for me.”

And then?

Stop talking.

Give the other person a chance to respond before you start explaining your entire personal history. You might be surprised by how often they simply say, “Okay, no problem.” And if they don't? You can deal with the actual conversation instead of the seventeen imaginary ones you've already had.

And One More Thing Before You Go

I want you to think about the last time you said yes when you really wanted to say no.

• What were you afraid would happen?

• That they'd be upset?

• That they'd think you were selfish?

• That they'd stop asking?

That you'd somehow become a bad friend, mother, partner, daughter, or human being because you had the audacity to have a preference?

Now ask yourself something else.

How much time have you spent trying to avoid disappointing other people while quietly disappointing yourself?

Ouch.

I know.

That's one I'm still working on, too.

Anyway.

If you've already said no to something this week and you're currently drafting your third apology, consider this your sign to leave the message alone. Go make a coffee. Read a book. Watch something ridiculous on television. Let the other person have their feelings. And let yourself have a life.

Your no doesn't need a closing argument.

See you in the wash,

Ness

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